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God Is Thinking Of Me?

Posted by Jim Thornber on October 20, 2009
Posted in: Christian Spirituality, Spiritual Gifts. Tagged: Catholic, Christian Spirituality, Christianity, Church, Ecumenism, Faith, God, International Pentecostal Holiness Church, Jesus, King David, monasticism, prayer, Scripture, Spirituality, Writing. Leave a comment

“How precious to me are your thoughts, O God!  How vast is the sum of them!  Were I to count them, they would outnumber the grains of sand”— Psalm 139:17-18

ThinkerI like the honesty of King David. Up until verse sixteen of Psalm 139, David is contemplating ways he could hide from God. (I’ve done that – I just don’t readily admit it.)

Then David realizes that there is no place in the Universe he can go to avoid God.  He even concludes that God knew Him and counted all of his days while he was still forming inside his mother’s body. After meditating upon all of this, David finally says, “How precious to me are your thoughts, O God!” As this Psalm clearly shows, the thoughts of God have been resting upon David, and David tells us that those thoughts are more numerous than the grains of sand (vs. 18).

Think about that. God has more thoughts about you than there are grains of sand on the earth. And those are precious thoughts, not angry, disappointing thoughts.

God is thinking about His creation, and His thoughts are precious as they pertain to man—so precious, in fact, that God has chosen to crown man with glory and honor (Ps. 8:4-5; Heb. 2:7) and to one day set his stature eternally above that of heavenly beings.

When we truly understand that God is thinking precious and positive thoughts about us, and even wants us to live crowned with glory and honor, not burdened with sin and shame, will it change our way of life? Continue Reading

Scriptures That Bother Me — Galatians 5:6

Posted by Jim Thornber on October 15, 2009
Posted in: Christian Spirituality, Religion, Worship. Tagged: Assemblies of God, Catholic, Christian Spirituality, Church, Faith, God, International Pentecostal Holiness Church, Jesus, Love, Religion, Scripture, Spirituality, Worship, Writing. 4 Comments

The Faith To Love

For in Christ Jesus neither circumcision nor uncircumcision has any value. The only thing that counts is faith expressing itself through love. Galatians 5:6

faithI’ve been around Christians and Christianity for thirty-five years now. I’ve been associated with Baptist, Pentecostal, Catholic and non-denominational organizations and churches. I’ve seen mysterious, authentic movements of God’s Spirit that have transformed people’s lives, and had conversations with pseudo-religious nuts who proclaimed they were the only ones who held true to “The One True Faith.” It’s been a wild ride.

Since I was saved in the 70’s, I’m quite familiar with the Faith movement. You know, those who liked to “name” their blessing and “claim” it in Jesus’ name. However, Galatians 5:6 sets that idea on its head, for Paul says that the ultimate expression of faith is not for the accumulation of things, but to express itself through love.

Scripture does not encourage us to have faith for prosperity, ministry, jobs, success, popularity, houses, the newest cell phone or a huge 401k. True, we are to have faith for our “daily bread,” but mostly we need to have a faith that expresses itself through love.

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Scriptures That Bother Me — John 13:1,4

Posted by Jim Thornber on October 13, 2009
Posted in: Christian Spirituality, Service. Tagged: Assemblies of God, Brothers and Sisters of Charity, Catholic, Christian Spirituality, Church, God, International Pentecostal Holiness Church, Jesus, Monk, Religion, Savior, Scripture, Service, Spirituality. 3 Comments

Tale Of The Towel

BEFORE the Passover Feast began, Jesus knew (was fully aware) that the time had come for Him to leave this world and return to the Father. And as He had loved those who were His own in the world, He loved them to the last and]to the highest degree. . . .took off His garments, and taking a [servant’s] towel, He fastened it around His waist (John 13:1,4, Amplified).

Jesus washes feetPerhaps the best-known passage that shows us the servant heart of Jesus is John 13, where we see our Lord and Savior, the creator through whom God made the universe, washing feet.

Jesus was fully aware of who He was in God, where He was from, and where He was going. As such, He was not serving His disciples while He waited for God to bring Him into His “real” ministry. He didn’t wash feet as a way of passing the time before He got on with His studies at Seminary or waited for His first call to pastor a church (those are the things I would do). Service was at the heart of the life Jesus laid down for His friends.

What challenges me most about this episode is the fact that Jesus gave credibility and integrity to what He did because of who He was, while most of us are inclined to get that backwards. We have the tendency to define who we are by what we do. For example, if you go to any gathering or social event and meet somebody new, watch how long it takes for one of you to ask, “So, what do you do for a living?” Most of us define and categorize ourselves not by who we are in God, but by what we do in life. But in Luke 9:18-20, Jesus did not ask His disciples, “What do the crowds say I do?”, but “Who do the crowds say that I am?”

We must all ask a similar question: “Who does God say that I am?” Continue Reading

Changed by Worship

Posted by Jim Thornber on October 8, 2009
Posted in: Christian Spirituality, Worship. Tagged: Assemblies of God, Brothers and Sisters of Charity, Catholic, Christian Spirituality, Church, Ecumenism, Faith, God, International Pentecostal Holiness Church, John Michael Talbot, Little Portion, Monk, Worship. 6 Comments

For four years I was an Assemblies of God minister and a monk with the Brothers and Sisters of Charity at the Little Portion Hermitage. This is an excerpt from an unpublished book I’ve written called Taking Off My Comfortable Clothes.

upper roomPerhaps it is just me, but I don’t think the believers in Acts 2 were very surprised when the wind blew and shook the upper room when the disciples gathered for prayer and worship.  Jesus said, “For where two or three come together in my name, there am I with them” (Matt. 18:20). Would you really expect God to enter a room and not make just a little bit of noise? When God arrives, change is in the air.

When I was a monk, we gathered in the chapel at the Little Portion with an expectancy that we would meet with God. The physical acts of worship — kneeling, standing, raising our hands, making the sign of the cross — are designed to involve the whole person in a spiritual act of worship. We cannot separate the spiritual from the physical. Any truly spiritual act will find an expression through our bodies, whether that be in raising our hands as we sing of God’s glory, or stretching out our hands to serve those less fortunate.

You may think it very spiritual to be a monk or a nun who spends most of their days in prayer and contemplation of God. But I know of no monastic tradition, even those who spend up to 19 hours a day alone with God, where no work is done. Please do not get the impression that you’d be more spiritual if you didn’t have a job to go to and all that was required of you was to sit in a comfortable chair and worship God while heavenly music played in the background. Continue Reading

New Pastor, New Responsibilities

Posted by Jim Thornber on October 1, 2009
Posted in: Spiritual Gifts. Tagged: Assemblies of God, Christian Spirituality, Church, Faith, God, International Pentecostal Holiness Church, Jesus, Pastor, Religion, Scripture, Spiritual Gifts. 5 Comments

Pastor Jim signLook at that picture. Yep, that’s me. “Pastor” Jim Thornber. Even though I see the title, I truly do not comprehend the immensity of it all.

In a previous article called Saying Goodbye To My Beautiful Title, I wrote, “It is amazing how complete is the delusion that titles equals significance.” I’m not any more significant now that I’ve got a title once again – I’m more responsible.

Before my election as pastor, only a handful of people looked to me for wisdom, advice, direction, guidance, vision, counseling, etc. Now an entire church is waiting for waterfalls of wisdom to come pouring out. And that thought makes me want to crawl into a hole and hide.

Being a pastor of a church is a calling that is bigger than any one person. No single individual can be the leader of a congregation. Therefore, the local church needs every member to use their gifts for the Kingdom’s sake or we will never fulfill the King’s agenda. As I try to wrap my brain around the enormous task ahead of me, I realize that now, more than ever, I need every gift and talent God has brought to this small congregation He has guided me to. And your church needs you, too.

After installation service, with Bishop Drake. A good looking couple, eh?

After installation service, with Bishop Drake. A good looking couple, eh?

After I found out I was the pastor of Cathedral of Praise, I wrote on my Facebook page, “Pastoring is not an arrival. It is just a pulling into the station of your destination where the real work begins.” There is a lot of work ahead of us in our small congregation. But even if you are part of a mega-church, you still have a part to play. I encourage you to find your part and use your God-given gifts for God’s glory. And believe me when I tell you, your pastor will appreciate it.

Holy Transparent

Posted by Jim Thornber on September 29, 2009
Posted in: Christian Spirituality. Tagged: Assemblies of God, Brothers and Sisters of Charity, Catholic, Christian Spirituality, Church, Ecumenism, Faith, God, International Pentecostal Holiness Church, Jesus, Little Portion, Monk, Scripture, Spirituality. 5 Comments

For four years I was an Assemblies of God minister and a monk with the Brothers and Sisters of Charity at the Little Portion Hermitage. This is an excerpt from an unpublished book I’ve written called Taking Off My Comfortable Clothes.

dirty harryBlaise Pascal said, “We must learn our limits. We are all something, but none of us are everything.” Or, as that wise 20th century philosopher Harry Callahan (Clint Eastwood) said in the movie Magnum Force, “A man’s got to know his limitations.”

A key component in being transparent with who you are involves acknowledging what you are not. Admitting your strengths as well as your weaknesses will allow you to be true to yourself, live the life God created you to live, and enable you to say no to those things that are not your calling.

I acknowledge that I am not an apostle, prophet, evangelist, worship leader, business entrepreneur, engineer, chef or bank president; I’m a teacher of Scripture. I also know I thrive teaching the 18-30 year old group, so I can easily say “No” to any request to teach children’s church. At the same time, there are people in the church who love to work with children but would be scared spitless if asked to teach the Tabernacle of Moses to a group of twenty-somethings for twelve weeks, an assignment I would relish with only one regret — we couldn’t stretch it to twenty-four.

Furthermore, I understand that God has given me a certain amount of musical ability, and I’ve played piano on numerous worship teams. However, I also know there are many men and women who are better musicians than I am. Although I enjoy playing piano, I know teaching Scripture and equipping people to be better ministers, not leading worship, is my primary avenue for ministry. The problem for many of us, especially church leaders, begins when we forget Pascal said, “None of us are everything.”

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The Gospel of Attraction

Posted by Jim Thornber on September 24, 2009
Posted in: Christian Spirituality, Religion. Tagged: Alternative Lifestyle, Assemblies of God, Catholic, Christian Spirituality, Faith, Gay, God, International Pentecostal Holiness Church, Jesus, Scripture, Spirituality, Writing. 2 Comments

“Even though I am a free man with no master, I have become a slave to all people to bring many to Christ . . . Yes, I try to find common ground with everyone so that I might bring them to Christ.” –1 Cor. 9:19, 22 (NLT)

magnetsI had an interesting conversation this summer with a man at a church picnic. Because I had never met him, at first glance I thought he was going through chemotherapy. He wore a knit cap in ninety-degree weather, had no hair on his arms, legs or face, and had penciled in his eyebrows. Only after I sat across from him at lunch did I understand the situation.

After his grandmother introduced me to him, he said, “If you were the pastor of a church, how would you deal with people involved in alternate lifestyles?”

Not wanting to seem presumptuous about where he was heading, I said, “What do you mean?”

He said, “You know, people involved in same sex marriages. You’re from California, so you know what I’m talking about.”

I smiled at that and said, “I cannot support a lifestyle that the Bible obviously condemns. However, people involved in alternate lifestyles are always welcome in ‘my’ church, but by choosing to live in a way that disobeys Scripture, I would not allow them to be involved in a leadership position. The same would be true for a man who chooses to gamble away his paycheck and then borrows money from his friends for food. My concern is always for the ultimate good of the individual, regardless of their actions.”

Then I said something that seemed to please him. “I have only one requirement for a person to come to my church: they must be a sinner. Therefore, everyone is welcome.”

The man smiled and said, “Thanks. That’s a good answer. I like that.”

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Scriptures That Bother Me — 1 Corinthians 12:11

Posted by Jim Thornber on September 18, 2009
Posted in: Christian Spirituality, Religion, Spiritual Gifts. Tagged: Assemblies of God, Christian Spirituality, Church, Ecumenism, Faith, God, International Pentecostal Holiness Church, Jesus, Religion, Scripture, Spiritual Gifts. 4 Comments

But Lord, I Want THAT Gift

“It is the one and only Spirit who distributes all these gifts. He alone decides which gift each person should have” – 1 Corinthians 12:11 (NLT)

giftsFor many people, the Christmas (or Chanukah) season is their favorite time of year. The time spent with family, the abundance of favorite foods, and of course the opening of gifts all make this holiday special.

When I was a kid, I was so keen on getting gifts I would often peel back the wrapping paper to get a peak at what was underneath (and I’ll bet you did, too). After all the gifts were unwrapped, I would head outside to gather with my friends and compare gifts which, in Southern California, inevitably included a few new bikes, a skateboard or two and usually one remote-controlled car. However, it seemed to me that no matter how cool my gifts were, there was always some other gift my friends had that I envied. I guess they felt the same, because we usually ended up playing with the other person’s gifts more than our own.

What bothers me is how often I have this same attitude towards the gifts the Holy Spirit has wisely given to me. Instead of enjoying and showing gratitude for the gifts God graciously gave me, I find myself desiring “other” gifts – gifts I see in people that I, with self-proclaimed omniscience abounding, deem more successful than I am. I figure if I had their gifts then I, too, could have what they have: house, car, job, published book, prestige. You know, all those items that are destined to perish. But by doing so, all I’ve really done is whine, tell God I don’t like my gifts and, in a not-so-subtle manner, suggest He made a mistake. Continue Reading

Scriptures That Bother Me — Isaiah 1:3

Posted by Jim Thornber on September 15, 2009
Posted in: Christian Spirituality, Writing. Tagged: Assemblies of God, Catholic, Christianity, Church, Faith, God, International Pentecostal Holiness Church, Jesus, Religion, Scripture, Spirituality. 1 Comment

I Don’t Know How Good I’ve Got It

“Even an ox knows its owner, and a donkey recognizes its master’s care – but Israel doesn’t know its master. My people don’t recognize my care for them” – Isaiah 1:3 (NLT)

ConstitutionI did not get up this morning intending to write. All I really wanted to do was check my e-mail and a few sports scores, and then settle down and read some nice, comfortable, soothing, spiritually uplifting and self-esteeming Scripture. Why I chose Isaiah is beyond my understanding.

As you can tell, I didn’t make it past verse three. At first, I wanted to ridicule and scoff at Israel for not knowing their God and forgetting everything He has done for them. The Lord rescued them from their Egyptian masters, gave them a land overflowing with abundance, established a lifestyle of worship and peaceful existence with their God and continually protected them from their enemies. In response to God’s marvelous care for them, the Israelites show a tremendous lack of gratitude and turn their backs upon Him (Isaiah 1:4).

After I finished thinking bad thoughts about a group of people who died 2,700 hundred years ago, I started to consider the many ways this verse speaks of my life. In how many ways do I not recognize God’s care for me? It didn’t take long to compile a list.

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Singing The Same Old Song

Posted by Jim Thornber on September 8, 2009
Posted in: Christian Spirituality, Religion. Tagged: Assemblies of God, Catholic, Christianity, Church, Faith, God, International Pentecostal Holiness Church, Jesus, Job, Psalms, Religion, Scripture. 9 Comments

Singing The Same Old Song

“Sing to the LORD a new song; sing to the LORD, all the earth.” – Psalms 96:1

Old MusicYou know the Holy Spirit is on your case when you’re zipping along, joyfully reading Scriptures, feeling good about yourself and your relationship with God, when suddenly you come across a verse that smacks you in the head so hard your feet ache. This verse did that to me about two minutes ago.

How, you may ask, can such a sweet, uplifting, joyful and inspiring verse bring you such misery and pain? Easy. It’s been a while since I’ve sang a new song, and I sense God telling me its time to change my tune.

I feel like my prayer life is in the rut of seeking the same things over and over and over. I’m getting so tired of praying the same old song (“Lord, guide me to our next ministry. Help my book find a publisher. Lead me to a job that pays well enough that my wife won’t have to work. Give me a reason to get out of bed in the morning other than going to work to sell plumbing parts….”) that I’ve mostly given up on prayer.

You’ll notice, of course, that my prayer life is mostly about me. My ministry. My job. My book. Continue Reading

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