The Problem With Pleasure
You don’t have what you want because you don’t ask God for it. And even when you ask, you don’t get it because your motives are all wrong—you want only what will give you pleasure. – James 4:3
Just after I got out of Bible College, I took a position as a youth pastor. I wasn’t called to be a youth pastor, didn’t really want to be a youth pastor and did not intend to stay a youth pastor, but my denomination required me to have a ministry position before I could receive my ministerial credentials. So, at the expense of a nice group of kids in a small church in California, I pursued the position for the sheer ego-pleasure of being called “Pastor Jim” and by doing so, removed God and His love from the process.
Sure, I knew God called me to be a minister. But I’m amazed at the deceptive lengths I went to get what I wanted, even taking a position I knew I wasn’t suited for and by doing so, killing the chance another real youth pastor may have had at ministering to those kids. I wanted something and I fought and killed for the pleasure of the pleasure. Oh Lord, please forgive me.